For a long time, I have felt that the universe has a perverse sense of humor. So when I received my mission upgrade earlier this year to “bring all of creation into communion” I felt like Noah in the Bill Cosby skit – “Riiiight.” I sat there barely able to breathe and stunned. One of my first thoughts was “well, I guess this is a multi-lifetime task, and certainly made for many to work on.” And couldn’t help that some of the next thoughts were now “how will I do that?” not to mention, so “now exactly what does that mean, and what would that look like?”
I had easily accepted the understanding of my first revealed mission to “bridge heaven to earth.” I felt that I was already doing that at some level. Yes, I didn’t know precisely what that meant, yet, there was a knowing about that. To me, it meant bringing some of the understandings about heaven to earth. Over the years, many had talked about the ascension process, I, on the other hand, saw it as a descension process – that of bringing Spirit into form. So, bridging heaven to earth made total sense to me. This one, bringing all of creation into communion was a lot more nebulous to me.
A mixture of parts stepped forward. The Courageous One – now just say that out loud and see what happens. I have said those words a multitude of times, and so far no one has even said “Really, what does that mean?” or “Really, how are you doing that?” or really, much of anything. It is almost as if I have spoken them into the void – I get to practice getting them out of my mouth without experiencing any repercussions. No stoning, shooting, drowning, stabbing, burning. This is a good thing.
Self-Doubt has come forward. It says, “that is a fairly big task. You know you can’t do that. You don’t even know what it means. Now why do you think YOU got that task, it really isn’t up your alley, you know. There are others that you know who are far better suited for this task than you. And, oh, by the way, good luck with that.”
The Trusted Source voice encourages “Patience, Grasshopper, all will be revealed in due time.”
So, what has actualized for me, since that fateful day while sitting on the wall? I had a somewhat immediate conceptual understanding what everything comes from the same quantum reality, and in that state, we are all in harmony or communion. It is simply a case of us returning to that state while we are in manifest form. I also understood that it goes far beyond just the human species. I am drawn to offer a course called Conversations with Consciousness. A great idea, although I have no idea why this would be attractive to any one else, let alone the masses. It isn’t like they need to have the ability to converse with things that are not human. Geez, I don’t even go around having regular conversations with non-human sentients and things. Although, I confess that I do have some conversations. Again, I am struck with the perverse humor of the Universe.
I have semi-immersed myself into experiments and deep questioning. How do I truly feel about mice running around in my place? (I live in a very remote area) How about insects? How do I come into harmony with them? How do I really feel about things? What is harmony? Where do my boundaries really exist? Why do I have the boundaries in the first place? Do I even get to have boundaries and be in harmony? How can I co-exist in harmony? Where did the beliefs that I have come from anyway? Do I really want to increase my interactions, make myself more conscious? Will I have to / how much will I have to change my lifestyle? Is this where my childhood instinctual draw to St. Francis of Assisi starts to make sense in a much bigger way? All good questions from various aspects of myself. (Me and my parts are good at having questions.)
As the months pass by, I start to have the serendipitous moment happen from time to time and allow me to shift perceptions around where do I start with all of this. An advertisement for a Shamanistically related course turns on the light bulb, that the tradition of honoring the life in all things has been around for a long time. I don’t have to reinvent the wheel. I can tap into what already exists. The burden that somehow, as part of this, I must come up with an unique way to do this gets relieved.
As I prepare for the Conversations with Consciousness offering, I attempt to put together some information about me, as the guide. And suddenly the Wise Woman, who has taken her time, comes forward and says, “Not to worry. Think about this, in this lifetime alone, you have been dabbling with various forms of consciousness for a long time. You have been exposed to Gardening with Nature’s Intelligence (Machaelle Small-Wright); made essences out of flowers-gems-sacred earth locations-animals-birds; played with essential oils and wrote a book on the messages that they had to share; worked with horses where they shared messages for everyday life; and if you keep going, you have learned to talk with the parts of self. All of these are consciousnesses in various forms. You have tapped into the energy of your car; various forms in nature; dealt with consciousness of species-businesses-concepts. None of this is “foreign” to you. So you have a lifetime playing with this at a low level. You just need to make it bigger.”
Check that out – apparently, I do have some expertise, and the Skeptic, Doubter and Worry-Wart all breathe a sigh of relief. I begin to sense the reasoning behind “Patience Grasshopper.” I see that it is becoming a project of getting in harmony with myself, and trusting that things will unfold at the rate that I can truly take it in as well as expand my awareness.
I have to admit, that asking those more salient questions like “now, why is it that I don’t like the blonde cricket-like things jumping on me?” “What does it mean if I see the little mouse callings inside my house?” “What beliefs are coming forward, and are they really mine, and can I adapt them?” is rich fodder to contemplate and work with. I find working with the parts that have reactions/objections and asking different questions is permitting the letting go and allowing to show up in my life. It also allows me to begin asking the questions like “what is it that the mice need?” “Which of those needs would I choose to accommodate?” which are a very different questions.
What would coming into harmony with all that exist look like for you?